In the Spring of 2010 I was interviewed for a documentary called Up/Down, about Bipolar Disorder. 2009 had been a rough year for me. I was hospitalized several times and in the fall I underwent electroconvulsive therapy. Although at this point I weighed only 100 pounds and could barely remember things like my daughter’s name or how to get to the store, I already knew I wanted to grow strong enough to make a difference. I had to make sense of why I went through what I did and I wanted my suffering to have been worth it. I knew I wanted to live, to help others, but first I had to help myself.
The analogy of the kite and the anchor has resonated so deeply with me, it is a reminder at the very least to try and remain centered amidst the mental storms that plague 1 out of 5 of us. It has helped me make my way back to health and keep my commitment to living. I had lost so much, almost too much, but I could still see that I HAD so much. I had so much to choose to live for.
I am committed to helping others through advocating for mental health. I believe we all have the power within ourselves, and strength, to keep the kite string and the anchor chain held tightly at center, never sinking and never floating away.